Saturday, July 5, 2008


Okay...confession time. I'll do mine then you can do yours.

1) My house is a mess. I really don't have an excuse other than I was just really lazy last week. DH was in his last week of his next-to-last class for his MBA so he was absolutely no help. I haven't stopped "going" since school let out for the summer and I really didn't have anything I HAD to do last week so I just kind of...didn't do much of anything. I went to Jazzercise, took the kids to the movie, washed clothes, cleaned the kitchen, dusted and vacuumed. That's about it. My bathrooms are in serious need of disinfecting and my sheets are a breeding ground ripe for bed bugs I'm quite sure. But this past week was actually kind of nice.

2) I'm going through a jealous phase. I'm jealous of people who are not on WW and who are not eating right. I remember when I didn't think much about what I ate. When I could go to Chili's and order the chips and queso, the Buffalo Chicken Sandwich and the Chocolate Paradise Pie and not think a thing about it. I remember when I didn't agonize over everything I put in my mouth and wonder if *this* is the animal cracker that's going to bump the scale up one pound. I think about how carefree they must be not having to count points and get out of bed early to exercise. I was there once. I know I should be thankful for where I am and what I have achieved so far. But I'm just not there this week.
I'm also jealous of men. Because they get something like 250 extra WW Points per day just for being men. How is that fair? They also don't have a monthly bloat, nor do they stress eat. It's maddening really. And I know that they get the extra points but there are days that I actually eat *more* than my husband. Those are the days when I feel like a total pig.

3) I made a cake yesterday. You know the one where you make a regular cake and ice it with whipped cream and put the blueberries and strawberries on there so it looks like an American Flag? Yeah, I made one of those. And I ate a really big piece. With frozen yogurt. And then another smaller piece. It was really good. And there's still so much of it left and it's still so good. I'm going to have to throw it away tomorrow or else I'm going to eat the whole stinking thing myself.

4) I'm struggling with money issues. WE are not struggling with money, I'm just struggling with being satified with what we have and not wanting more. There's so much I want for my kids and for our family and I feel overwhelmed with how much everything costs. And somedays it feels like we're never going to get to the point where we don't worry about money. Where we have enough for what we need and then a little left over for fun. I don't know. I guess I'm just having a pity party here today. I'm not Catholic so I have to do my confessing here. :)

I hope you all had a fantastic July 4th holiday. We had a great day yesterday. We went to the parade and then to this fantastic park over in the town next to us. The wingnut (of course) made a friend there. He makes a friend everywhere we go. Then we took a family drive, came home and took a nap and then went to see the fireworks with my fantastic sister-in-law and her family. It was a good time. And I even got up early this morning and went to Jazzercise. I needed it after the stoopid cake incident yesterday!

1 comment:

Erin said...

I'm with you on all of that!! I know I am blessed and that God will take care of us, like he always has. These are just hard times. We used to put money away into an account for when we needed things. And we had money left over to play with. I've had to cut back on lots of things, but at least we had places where we could cut back. We're blessed there, too.
And your cake? Yesterday we celebrated my son's 11th bithday and I made a Coca Cola Chocolate cake. I do believe I've had at least 3 or 4 good sized pieces! I have to stay out of it now so that my son will get some more of it! If it weren't a birthday cake I'd take it around to neighbors. You'd have better luck there. Being at the heaviest I've ever been, I think when people see me they are reminded why they need to stay away from cake, and they say, "No thanks!"
But the rest of today will be better! Remember throughout it all to have a good time!